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[c]..So.
About me then.
I’m Zoe, if you didn’t already know (you know how many people start out that way?? lol)
I’m 15. My b-day’s February 13th. I’m gonna be a sophmore in highschool. I'm bi.
I have way too many unused nick-names, so I’m not gonna type them.
Okay so for real there’s totally a spider dangling right in front of the screen. It’s really little. And just like going down..
Oh yeah…me…lol.
They haven’t made it official, cause they’re too damn lazy (whoever “they” is), I’m like seriously major ADD. And I promise you can tell.
I am a messed up child, no matter how you put it. I’m probably one of your most genuine definitions of “freak”. Not to mention how many times I’ve been called one. And thanked the accuser very much.
Music has found it’s way to becoming my life. I love lots of different kinds of music, my most favorite genre being alternative and modern rock. There’s really only a couple genres I really despise: rap and all it’s followers, and country.
I have about half of a band. We started it with about everyone we needed, then half the people decided “well never mind since you guys are serious”. Haha. People make me laugh sometimes. But well now we need a drummer like hell.
I’m all for the local bands. I support them all, and would be at every single concert and event if I could. I’m that chick that’ll be getting a few teenagers in back when I’m like 25 or 30 and up when those bands are the total shit. And I’ll be able to say “I went to school with them…and hung out with them” and very much mean it, not like those poseurs. Aka preps, sorry to generalize.
I play like a million instruments, to add to the musical life. Okay well only 5 at the moment, but they’re quickly adding up. Those 5 include piano, viola, clarinet, guitar, and bass. And I pretty much love them all.
I skate. Yeah pretty cool I guess. But I’m not gonna brag, I’m not really that good at all. I need to practice, like, uptheass bad.
So I have to get the one other part out, yeah I’m single, not that anyone cares enough to act on it and make me more then “just friends”. Or just to play with. Seems I’m a really good person for that type of thing. But we’re working on that. So all you douches that do that sorta thing don’t go expecting anything.
Sadly enough to say, I still am rather naïve in love. As I said before, I do somehow managed to get used a lot, and what’s even worse is when you’re the chosen one the guy who cheats on his girlfriend cheats with. Deffinately not too much fun, I’m not gonna lie.
And congratulations if you’ve read this far.
Continuing…
I’ve gotten really fucked up this past year. I’m deffinately not the same I was in the beginning of 7th grade. That year began the change we come to today. (haha that sounded funny).
I probably am at least a little bipolar, I am depressed, and that’s just how it is. It’ll probably be awhile before I change, if ever.
I’m sorry if I start to annoy in someway in the process of getting to know you, I really don’t mean to, but in that respect, I still am very much a child, and you’re gonna have to tell me when I’m doing that, because I won’t realize it either until you’re really pissed at me or just not at all.
I get hurt pretty easily. I get attached to the wrong people and fall for the wrong people, and so it usually ends badly, for me.
I do like to write, rather a lot. It’s one of the few exits of emotions and feelings I’ve found to help in any ways at all. I write poems and songs, the songs of which some I attempt putting some music to. Generally when I’ve just had a very bad encounter or experience, I write a minimum of 3 poems, accompanied by a few songs. So you can generally tell when I’m worse than usual. I’ve been told I’m pretty good, so it’s not all that bad when I go through a bad time or event I guess..
I think I’ll stop torturing you now with my life and the story of me. (yes backwards, I like it that way). Though if you’ve read this far I think that’s by choice and not just “wth I’ll read some”. So hope you’ve enjoyed.
My aim’s BlackCatGirlxxx
I’m on that quite a lot.
My msn’s Pepper_The_Vampire_Girl
I’m on that a bit, though I don’t have anyone to talk to on there at the moment, since I just got it.
Seriously, just talk to me, I don’t bite, atleast not for just talking to me. Now, if you get on my bad side, watch out, cause that’s real hard to do anymore. But really, just talk to me, chances are, you’ll be my friend for a good while.
But just one warning: you’re gonna have to take me as I am, or not at all. Most likely, I’m not changing for you.[/c]

How did I end up on Sheezy?......my cousin, BracingHope.^^

I love sushi.
I plan to be the worlds greatest sushi chef and all will know my name and when some day when i meet up with those people who told me i couldn't do it and they have some crummy job and im living my dream up i will say, "Ha! Told you so!" and then laugh in their face. okay idk maybe not the last part.

I read Naruto, Fruits Basket, Full Metal Alchemist, Zodiac P.I.(already finished though), Aquarian Age, DNAngel, XXX Holic, read a portion of Card Captor Sakura (it's so cute!!!!), and Death Note.

Music I listen to: modern/a little bit of emo/punk/alternative rock.

Music[=life]: Mayday Parade, Atreyu, Madina Lake, Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, Blink-182, Panic! At The Disco, Hawthorne Heights, Acceptance, AFI, Aiden, Alien Ant Farm, All-American Rejects, Armor For Sleep, Anna Nalick, Avenged Sevenfold, Bowling For Soup, Cartel, Coheed & Cambria, Cute Is What We Aim For, Death Cab For Cutie, Disturbed, The Exies, Family Force 5, Finger Eleven, From First to Last, Garbage, Goldfinger, Goo Goo Dolls, Good Charlotte, Gorilaz, Green Day, Gregory And The Hawks, Halifax, HelloGoodBye, Hinder (a little on occasion), The Hush Sound, Jack's Mannequin, Jet, Jimmy Eat World, Just Surrender, Th Killers, Killswitch Engage, Korn, Linkin Park, Lola Ray, Lucky Boys Confusion, Marilyn Manson, Mindless Self Indulgence, New Found Glory, Nightwish, Ok-Go, Papa Roach, Paramore, Plain White T's, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Relient K, Saliva, Secondhand Serenade, Simple Plan, The Spill Canvas, Story Of The Year, Streetlight Manifesto, Stroke 9, Sugarcult, Sum 41, System Of the Down, Taking Back Sunday, Three Days Grace, Thrice, Underoath, The Used, Valencia, Velvet Revolver, Weezer, Yellowcard. (and more)

I also LOVE some of the local bands.... those being: Drop To Zero, Maid Myriad, Throughout The Hallows, Trendy, Otenki, Rumored Alone, Zero Times Tardy, and many others.
Love those almost as much and more than some of the well known bands.

I like some foreign music too~

Here's are my peoples!!!:

- my older coussy:
- my younger coussy:
- my older coussy's best friend:
- my e-older brother: now--->
- my e-brother:
- my other nother e-brother:
- pet duckie:
- e-lil brother: [birakok 540]
- my bff and only not by blood sister:
- awesome friend! if you ever need one, he's the one!:
and I just know other people from on-line(look at friends and watchers)
If you want me to put you as something under my peoples, tell me and I will!!

I love to read Mangas, watch anime, i food...luckily it doesn't really affect me yet...., i love to draw, and i like to write my own stuff in my free time.

Any questions, ask me! For some (most) I'd prefer you PM me!!!







Shout

My band=Something To Do With Vampires
http://myspace.com/somethingtodowithvampires


MONKEY BUTTS!!!!! lawl.

I have no life.

I like-eth icecream!

GOT COWS?!? lawl

I love my guitar^^

if I had a boyfriend he could be jealous....

but I don't....
...lawl....

don't mind my randomness! X3

don't we all just love randomness?!

I have-eth no life!

Who likes pretty paper?!

Funny Quotes:

*sirens*
my little sister: "Somebody's dying!"
me: "wow you're really optomistic!"

“and Andy is busy doing what ever sexy vegetarians do.”
~Pete Wentz~

“uh oh…the ‘e’ word.”
~Pete Wentz~

my dad-“oh, that's a fig Newton, isn't it?”
my little sister-“No! It’s yellow!!”

my friend-“If you don’t, I’ll kick your ass…I’ll kick it!”

my other friend-“he could look like pete wentz but with a much cuter face”

same friend-“he’s just there for eye candy”

another friend-“it's like my eyes had an origasum”

mah ex-boyfriend still friend-"holy f*ck you scared me! you like come out of no where!" <--lol

Kevin Pees: "please I begetha you!!!" as he glomps Zach. lol

Kevin Pees (again): "where's my matress?? *looks up and sees a matress* who's matress is that??" lololololololol

Person whom I should know the name of but don't: *to friend Carly* "Have you smelled Kevin Pees lately? "
Carly: "um what??"
person: "have you smelled Kevin Pees lately???"
Carly: "um no.."
person: "you are a deprived child"
..me: "HAHA!!! you are deprived Carly cause you haven't smelled Kevin Pees!!!!!" DDD
Next day...
*I walk by Kevin and happen to notice how he smells...*
*me to Carly* "have you smelled Kevin Pees lately Carly???? "
Carly: "no"
me: "well I have!!"
*(today: 5/13/08)* Carly to me: He doesn't really smell that good
lololololololololololol


my little sister: how do you spell onion?...i-.."
*everyone (me, mother, father) laughs* yes




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onitenshi Says: (Oct 29th 2008, 4:20AM)
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amazing ! your poetry is truly multifarious . i love them and you nis totally watched !
brandi3981 Says: (Oct 11th 2008, 3:41AM)
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Zoe, Remember Me? Im Loris Sister Brandi, I Talked To You Via Barons Myspace!
S p e c i a l Says: (Aug 14th 2008, 2:31AM)
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D:>
What's with little-miss-emo-wrist up thar?
Tsuki Miyabi Says: (Jun 27th 2008, 8:54PM)
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cool lookup! =-3
Tsuki Miyabi Says: (Jun 27th 2008, 8:53PM)
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you rule dude!
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you know those depression commercials? posted Aug 24th 2008, 1:12AM
Mood: MiserableMusic: "Miserable At Best" Mayday Parade
I totally get what they mean when they say "you've begun to loose interest in everything you used to love, no one knows who you are anymore..." all that stuff.
idk what I am let alone does anyone else.
I was just reading some stuff on someone's page between 2 ex friends of mine.
it was interesting.
I would've loved to just b!tch to the hells to them, but yeah, I'm not gunna waste my effort typing.
It's a waste of my time.
They don't get the inside my head how fu¢ked up I am and don't wanna go through it with me anymore so whatever I don't care I can't do anything about it anymore.
I can't help what I am.
I have some new friends, good friends, they understand more of the jumble going on inside my head.
I'll live it out through my music and poetry, that's all I need along with those few friends who understand.
I really do need to switch schools.
Get away from rumors.
Get away from old aquantances.
Get away from old friends.
Get away from ex freinds.
Stick with the people that understand what I can't explain.
Apparently I think it's all about me.
I wasn't aware of that though.
No, I just want to know what's going on with ME and happening to ME so I can get FIXED and stop HURTING MYSELF and ALL THE OTHERS I LOVE so DEARLY that are TIRED of ME and THROUGH with ME.
I guess, as I've thought a couple things through right now, why I'm so obsessed with guys, I guess as it appears to others, that maybe the whole reasoning behind it in the very depths of my mind and heart, is they are like my drug, as people turn to drugs for relief, I turn to guys for acceptance, to know I'm wanted, that someone would want that much of me, that someone would love me and care about me so much with that kind of love, not just the friend love. Maybe it's the how I go from guy to guy trying to find love that can repair what previous ones have done but in the end I'm worse than when I began.
But I'm sure no one here understands that.
I regret ever coming on here I think.
Not to offend any friends I still have left on here, but some how I think if I had never met some of the people I did on here maybe some of these things in my life would be different or non-existent.
And this is for those who care still, they upped my zoloft, doubling it, and I have been better lately. Between that and staying off of here where so many tormenting memories lye, I think I'm doing better.
To think I planned half my whole future or more around someone I met on here. I never really told it to anyone, but really, that was how I was making my decision on college: which was closer to him. Why I thought that would relationship would last, I don't know now. I thought I did then, but now I'm not sure. It's just way too im-practical for reality.
But I'm going to try and get through this loose, and begin repairing my heart and future and all by myself, for it seems if I involve someone else, in the end I hurt them, loose them, and am even worse than when I started.
I don't even know what I want to conclude with or about, so I just won't say anything.

bye,
Richiko.










forget me forever, it's better off this way
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